Truth be told

Followers. Ta da! I am a liar.... of sorts. I said I would post a couple days later about a week ago.  Well, I started to and then found I could not bring myself to finish the post.  What is up with me.  Followers I will give you this.  It is 2 weeks almost post ride.  The ride was the most amazing thing I have done for myself, my body, my loved ones and my fellow man.  Over the past two weeks, I have been EXHAUSTED!!!!  Totally beat.  And that was expected.  I also have had the post ride loss that was talked about. You really do experience a unique loss of something so profound and meaningful in your life.  There were lots of Facebook pictures floating around, and can you believe I have yet to post mine or even go through mine.  That first week post ride, I would see some on FB and smile ear to ear, and then see one specifically and start to well up with tears.  I have had ups and downs at work trying to reintegrate myself back into reality.  That was and is still hard.  So these past two weeks have been.... not sure. Not rough, not depressing, not emotional.  Just recouping and digesting life.

So, tonight, I met with a wonderful new friend, and veteran rider. I asked her what was I feeling and was I normal.  Of course the answer was yes.  And it was a beautiful talk, one which I choose not to share publicly but will share individually.  But I had a blog ah ha moment.  I am pretty sure I have not been blogging because I don't want to share it.  Here's why.  This ride has been such an incredible, awesome, mind blowing, phenomenal experience.  And so very personal.  Not that I have not or wont tell people about it, but I was not ready, nor am I ready to tell a day by day account of what the ride was on a public forum.  But I am going to and I do believe I am ready now to write my journal entries (aka blog) to my online account of my ride and journey.

I recognize this is public.  So two very important notes before we get to day 0.

• One, I will be honest to myself about this ride.  Every single moment was beautiful, but I wouldn't be telling you the truth if that on day 7 I was done with Team San Diego.  So, if you are a Team San Diego rider, note, those are my feelings on that day and please do not take offense to those feelings.  You know I like you now.  That was just a rough day for my relationship with Team San Diego :)  Or if I describe a situation and you say Damn, I had no idea that was what Ricky was feeling, don't take any affront to it.  Nothing was negative about the ride.  But all you roadies and riders know what a roller coaster of emotions we go through and you all would be liars if you tell someone that every single moment was the happiest seconds of your life. And no, I will not use any persons name.  I cant.  That would not be fair that person or me..... And there were some other rough moments on days 2-6 as well. Well, I will drop some names here and there.  Hello, how can I tell you the magnificent accounts of me and my ride wife Romi's adventures, or the incredible day when I saw Jose after 6 days on the bike.
• Two, I will not tell you everything.  Some things that occurred on this ride are deeply personal.  I had dialogue and conversations with people that are so meaningful and a true moment between persons that are not meant to be shared in a public forum.  Again, I still have some incredible outlets (friends, family, boyfriend) whom I can talk to so no, I am not harboring emotions and internalizing them, I just wont tell all 6 followers out there LOL

Well, here goes nothing.  No promises followers.  I wont say when day 0 comes out.  I Will blog all 9 days (day 0 through 7 and the post ride days) and I will keep a promise to myself to have it done by end of July.

Till next time
Peddle on!